I’m looking forward to the summer. I need warmer weather in my life and a tan would be lovely.
I’m focused on better things today. I’m loving my reflection and I feel fortunate to be alive and well.
I’m learning about self-love in ways I was blind to as a young girl.
I’m cultivating thankfulness regardless of the motions.
I’m appreciating all things.
We all have things we should improve on. Then there are those qualities about you that they aren’t meant to love because someone else is. I’m finally understanding the difference between the two. I was trying to love a man who could never love me. A man who wanted to improve on things that simply make me, me.
We cannot change people. Please stop breaking your own heart and wait for the person who will value you. Toxicity is not what you were created for.
It’s a beautiful Tuesday morning. Renzo and I slept just a little longer than usual and my coffee is made to perfection. I feel incredibly blessed and honestly, that doesn’t come as easily as you would think it should.
As I was making my coffee I decided it was time to unplug from social media once again. I realize that as much as I would like to build my following and get my writing out into the world, my discontent and social media go hand in hand way too often.
They say nothing is ever what it seems and in my twenty eight years of life I have found that to be extremely true. However, the internet makes that truth so easy to forget. If we’re not careful, we’ll find ourselves TOO focused on the lives of others and not living to OUR fullest potential. Social media can consume you to the point that you aren’t present for all God is doing for YOU.
I may not have what the next person has but I am provided for and I don’t ever want to disregard my blessings all because they don’t LOOK like that of someone else.
While trying to figure out how to end this post, Renzo handed me a book to read to him. I stepped away and tended to my mommy duties. What he doesn’t know is I bought that book for him while he was still growing in my belly. Here he is now, in all his toddler glory and that is a complete miracle- MY miracle.
This is MY life- journeying through motherhood, faith, and loss. It’s a tiring trek at times but it’s mine and I want to not only remain present but also grateful.
My heart behind this post is to simply remind you of your life in a world that will constantly steer you in a different direction.
Faith is a journey and sometimes it’s a difficult one but it is what remains when everything seems lost. Today I am thankful for my faith. I am thankful that God still speaks to me and shows great love towards me. What are you thankful for?
There are certain things in life that we just can’t control. Yes, human beings are actually pretty powerful but we aren’t THAT powerful. I’m not speaking of manifesting greatness with your mind or topics of that nature. I’m referring to the moments in life that are just plain shitty- however that may look for you.
If you had the ability to change those parts of life you would have but…. you could not. It was just out of your control.
Often times I find myself trying to contain everything in my life but it’s really hard to be happy when you don’t know how to let shit go.
It is what it is
Life goes on.
Surrender to what is.
Everything happens for a reason.
All those made up mantras and I still struggle to just live in the present and take each day as it comes.
It’s okay to not have control over everything. Make peace with yourself and all those experiences. All the good things in life that are meant for us will never pass us by.
I’d like to dedicate this first post to my son- for making me a better woman and motivating me to begin writing again. If I ever have to be absent in the flesh, may my words always follow him. I love you Renzo.