There are certain things in life that we just can’t control. Yes, human beings are actually pretty powerful but we aren’t THAT powerful. I’m not speaking of manifesting greatness with your mind or topics of that nature. I’m referring to the moments in life that are just plain shitty- however that may look for you.
If you had the ability to change those parts of life you would have but…. you could not. It was just out of your control.
Often times I find myself trying to contain everything in my life but it’s really hard to be happy when you don’t know how to let shit go.
It is what it is
Life goes on.
Surrender to what is.
Everything happens for a reason.
All those made up mantras and I still struggle to just live in the present and take each day as it comes.
It’s okay to not have control over everything. Make peace with yourself and all those experiences. All the good things in life that are meant for us will never pass us by.
We all have our own lives, our own journeys. I’m simply trying to embrace mine no matter what it looks like. Some of it I love and other parts hurt my heart so bad. All in all, I am thankful for God’s comfort during a time where it is extremely needed but very undeserved.
I am excited to soon welcome my baby into the world. I think about he or she every single day. The desire to protect your baby at all times begins pretty early. I don’t even have him or her in my arms and I’m always ready to be a safe haven for my baby.
No one is going to make my child feel unwanted. No one is going to treat him or her as if they don’t matter in this life. My baby will know true love. My baby will know God. My baby will know happiness. My baby will know peace. My baby will know what it’s like to have a real family.
My child will know security and loyalty the very moment we make eye contact.
My child is the light in my life. I pray protection and a covering from the Lord every day. I need my child as much as he or she needs me.
My child keeps me aware of my journey. My child is already teaching me to embrace all that is mine for this time on Earth. I don’t own a thing- my heart knows that full well. But while I am here, I will embrace my life. I will love my journey. God has been good to me and I have to believe that greater things are coming, no matter how life looks right now.
Dated: Feb. 14, 2016